| If longsuffering takes years, it's one down. |
[25 Sep 2007|12:07pm] |
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I'll leave it to God to convict your heart. :)
I guess I haven't been blogging much.
I've been visiting Facebook more often than my own LJ!
I'm learning more and more how to step back and allow God to move.
How to let go, and let God!
Sometimes we think we can do it all, that's when we get comfortable and lose hunger for Him.
For me? NEVER.
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| Maturity does not come with age but character |
[21 Sep 2007|01:44am] |
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From now on I'm going to carry myself properly.
I am who I am, but I can still change.
Personality can remain for me.
But my character will always change to please You.
Today's meeting was awesome and I can't wait for the next. :)
Ivan and Wendy rocks!
&&&& I MISS PASTORS AND GARRETT!
But that's okay cuz they're coming back and landing in a few hours time.
Still, I missed them a lot lah can.
It's like going home and your parents aren't there. For 2 weeks.
And sometimes before I leave church for home I want to go to the office to say bye, but realise later that there's not really anyone to say bye to.
Well I shall rejoice now because they're coming back! :)
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| It's tomorrow |
[20 Sep 2007|01:14am] |
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My future is decided tomorrow.
But it has already been done in Heaven.
God, let Your will be done.
I have faith. :)
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| Cry out loud |
[18 Sep 2007|03:00am] |
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God of My Forever - City Harvest Church |
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Tonight I feel scared.
I need more faith.
King David messed up, but King David conquered his enemies one by one.
God, let me be like King David.
Somehow I don't feel assured enough about making it.
Yet somehow I don't see myself failing again.
But Lord I know that whatever it is, You are always here with me.
My greatest honour will always be to serve You, my Lord and King.
And I don't want to lose this honour.
I don't want to lose this privilege.
Not now.
I am not ready, Lord, don't send me there.
You are not finished with me, and I still want to serve You.
You know when I'm ready, You know now that I'm still not.
God I will work my hardest for this.
But I cannot move if You don't.
I need Your words of faith to strengthen me.
I need Your peace to comfort me.
I need Your Spirit to be with me and help me conquer this enemy.
Like Pastor Glenn, this is borrowed time.
Three years more, oh Lord, is all I ask.
Three whole years I will submit to You.
Three whole years I will give completely to You.
God, I stand on Your promises and make mine to You.
Give me this mountain, and I will give mine to You.
Let me conquer this, and I will live for You alone.
No titles, no glory, no desires of my own.
God, let whatever happens be pleasing to You.
That Your will shall be done too.
I'm not ready, but You more than I do.
Wherever You want me to go.
Your son and servant will follow.
Glory and praise be to You Jesus.
Amen.
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| God of my forever |
[18 Sep 2007|01:27am] |
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God of My Forever - City Harvest Church |
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God of my youth I remember
Your call on my life took me o'er
Your love has seen me through all my days
I stand here by Your grace
On this altar I've written my life
Tells of the story I have with You my Lord
I want the world to know
God of my forever
And forever I'm with You
My life is saved with a price
Your sacrifice redeemed my soul
God of my forever
and forever I will sing
My greatest honour will always be
To serve my Lord and King
God of my life I've surrendered
My heart finds its rest in Your word
Praises will not be enough to show
How my love for You has grown
Nothing matters when You're here with me
In the end just to hear You say "Well done"
Bowing before Your throne
God of my forever
And forever I'm with You
My life is saved with a price
Your sacrifice redeemed my soul
God of my forever
and forever I will sing
My greatest honour will always be
To serve my Lord and King
Forever and ever
Jesus You alone in glory reign
Forever and ever
With You I walk this narrow way
Song of powerful words and anointing.
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[17 Sep 2007|01:50pm] |
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The Stand - Hillsong |
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One mail from Wendy.
Two revelations from God through Ivan.
Three nights with Jia Yang.
Within four days, I feel like a new man.
I learnt what anyone couldn't have in just two hours.
2 Timothy 2:10
Therefore I endure all things for the sake of the elect, that they also may obtain the salvation which is in Christ Jesus with eternal glory.
Now I love people so much more :)
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| Difference between falling from the 20th storey and falling from the 2nd |
[15 Sep 2007|12:27pm] |
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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! *BOM*
*BOM* AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!
I'm just being nonsense.
Oh sorry.
I'm just being nonsence. (Huimin better not see this, haha)
E2E3 and E4's worship sessions were awesome yesterday.
Haha, had the breakthrough of my life. Felt God's presence and power so strongly.
To the extent where my guitar couldn't take it and thus broke the first string. HAHA.
I think I look funny where I was playing though. HAHA.
I just didn't notice. Aiya, too engaged with God.
Oh yes, was playing pool with Kenneth, Ted and made new friends like Bridget and Kaijun.
I won Ted FOUR straight games in a row.
I won the first game when he potted the black ball into the wrong pocket.
I won the second because he potted the black ball a little too early by trying a jump ball but missed.
Third and fourth were clean wins :) Haha but he won two back after that.
Had great fun and laughter most importantly, haha.
Oh and Bridget learnt to play pool!
This is one funny thing that happened.
First, she attempted a direct shot and hit the ball, but didn't get in.
While getting out of her posture, she accidentally hit another 3 more with her elbow.
Laughing and screaming over it, her cue hit the lamp above the table.
I should have video-ed it lah!
Oh she wants me to say that at least she hit the ball!
I left shortly after to meet Mark and Xin Xuan to study.
Grarrr... Supp paper coming up and I must pass.
STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.
See ya'll in church! :)
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| A thorn in my flesh |
[13 Sep 2007|12:17pm] |
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Your grace is sufficient to me.
Take me, mould me, use me, fill me.
I think single word/name MSN nicknames is the in thing right now and I just flowed with the trend.
HAHA.
So much simpler, than to think of something new every other day.
Waste time waste energy waste electricity.
Okay I'm being crappy now.
Can't wait for worship session tomorrow! AAAH!
How can only Christine see God! Not fair!
We want to see God also! :)
Going out later to buy new guitar strings and a guitar pick (because I lost mine!).
Then head down to Grismond's place.
Gonna have a great time.
Half-day fast tomorrow. YAY!
Okay bye.
Happy birthday Adri :)
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| EVERYBODY DANCE NOW! |
[12 Sep 2007|12:49am] |
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My King - Christian City Church |
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Someone please send me that ring tone if you have :)
Still rushing work plan, I just feel like stopping for a while to do QT.
Seriously, I'm not trying to be holy here. God's presence is addictive.
No wonder pastors are convicted to always fight for their time with God.
Hung out in church with Jessica today.
Mainly just sat down, talk and walk around church just like how she wanted.
"Can just sit one place one don't move around?" HAHA. Of course! :)
Just want to tell you that you're a great girl and God is smiling at you from Heaven.
WELCOME BACK TO HEART OF GOD CHURCH :)
You will always be part of our family, God's family.
Luke 15:11-32 is for you :)
Alright, back to work plan.
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| He measures the universe with the span of His hand |
[10 Sep 2007|03:17pm] |
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You're My God - Christian City Church |
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I will never exchange God's presence for anything at all.
Had an awesome QT.
Really felt God ministering to me.
I was really pouring out everything in me.
From friendship to study issues.
From people to self issues.
I just needed to cry out and cry out to the best Person available.
He is a BIG God.
But He cares for the smallest things in our lives :)
I always wondered why pastors and many of our leaders are such big people who would never go on emo trips nor have stupid problems like we do.
I look around me and everyone else is going through the same rubbish, yet a few notches higher are our leaders flying high in God.
I only realise when all of us are growing and are on our way to join them:
Their lives are 100% submission to God.
This is one strong revelation I'm going to build on, together with all others.
Soldiers fight for a cause that they are very sure of.
They eat, drink and sleep with their minds focussed on protecting their country and for honour.
For this cause they lay down their lives and fight to their very end, to their very last breath.
I'm a soldier for a greater cause, the cause of Christ.
I'm going to stand for God.
I'm going to fight for God.
I'm going to live for God.
I'm going to die for God.
No weapon formed against me shall prosper.
If God is for me, no one can be against me.
"You therefore must endure hardship as a good soldier of Jesus Christ." - 2 Timothy 2:3
I'm 100% submitted to the high call of Christ Jesus.
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| Hungry, desperate and surrendered |
[10 Sep 2007|01:20am] |
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God, help help help help help.
So many things I need to learn.
So many things I need to change.
So many things I can't handle.
So many things I've messed up.
It's not okay.
It's too hard for me to see beyond the eyes and words of people.
It's too hard for me to look at the root of every problem.
It's too hard for me to make the right and wise decisions.
But I know all things are possible with You alone.
I know that only You can convince me that "it's okay, it's okay".
I know that only You can direct me back to the real tracks of this race we all run.
I know that only You can assure me of who I am and be secure of it.
It's so hard. Telling people about You.
Telling people what's right and wrong.
Harder to stay humble at the same time.
But God, I will just remain faithful to what You have given me.
Just like how You remain faithful to Your promises.
I just want to be more like You, walk with You beside me.
I just want You, You and more and more of You in my life.
Have Your way in me oh God.
I don't want to do things my way any more.
Show me Your ways, show me how to live.
Show me how to love like You have loved me.
Your son is willing to learn and change according to Your plans.
King David messed up even more.
But King David caught Your heart.
Lord, let me be like King David.
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| Yadayadadeh |
[09 Sep 2007|12:05pm] |
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Parents and niece are back from Pattaya Penang.
They bought new clothes and FOOOOOOOOD! :)
Pastor How's birthday celebration was awesome.
The performance was hilarious.
Pastor How is right, leaders like Jian Ming and Roy are able to act because they are truly secure.
They rock mannnnnn...!
I can't wait for my new ministry duty.
Why haven't call me!? Your faithful servant is waiting.
HAHA. Just kidding. :)
Hurry hurry call!!!
Okay I'm going to Heaven for a while first before I leave for church.
LOADSSS of thoughts, though small, but better nip them before they grow.
See you guys in church :)
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| Michael learns to rock! :) |
[08 Sep 2007|12:36am] |
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I promise Huiqi not to tell ANYONE her secret and only God can interfere with this promise. HAHA.
But still, I want to laugh about it.
HAHAHA!
Today's worship session was awesome. Jesus came and filled the room and our hearts.
Although my arms a little twitched and my fingers are swollen like tiny tomatoes, it's a true privilege to play the guitar for God in His presence.
Hung out in church after that.
Ate very late lunch. Webcam-ed with Bryan. Joined Wendy, Jie Wei and Chloe for dinner but didn't eat.
Foosball-ed and pool-ed with churchies. Talked to Huiqi (HAHAHAHAHA!). Ate Punggol Nasi Lemak with Sam and had a heart to heart talk.
Haha. Sam Wong's great.
Seeing him doing so well now in church is really an inspiration and encouragement to me.
Thanks Sam! Talking to you motivated me to love God more.
Let's continue being faithful and fruitful in God! :)
Okay I'm beat.
Last night lah, Alvin call me on MSN talk until don't know what time. NOW ALSO! HAHA.
Well, I'm going to have a bath now and soon have my zees.
Good night everyone!
Ps. Yes, my LJ has been unleashed. Readers, enjoy!
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| Seems harder to tempt me now eh? |
[06 Sep 2007|08:41pm] |
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Gabriel Lee has officially broke fast.
72 hours of water, fresh milk, Milo, Lipton and iced vanilla latte from church cafe.
Ironically, I feel fatter after my dinner. Well that's what I need anyway. HAHA.
Oh oh and I'm not going to be in Sound any more.
Another ministry is more urgently in need of manpower and would take a shorter time for training.
Hmm... I think I shall keep all of you in suspense. HAHA. But it's another great ministry.
You guys will find out when I'm on duty during one of the services.
Oh yes, it's still ops.
Gotta love it.
I am really really really falling in love with God's presence.
The past year I've never felt this way. In fact, never in my Christian life.
The feeling that you're connected to God, in flow with your pastors and on the right track of catching the right heart.
It's better than just a mere vision to live for!
Oh and something funny just happened.
Mark and I are buying a Starhub top up card for his friend who's quite tight financially and thus Mark had the idea of helping her out and blessing her.
So I offered to purchase it since 7-11 is just outside my house. But lazy me saw my maid on her way out to buy stuff, so I asked her to help me get it.
So she did and came back, and pointed at a black space and told me that I have to give my friend that number.
I was like "Huh? What number? Where?"
For 10 seconds I looked hard and realised that I need to scratch it out.
SORRY LAH! I NEVER USE TOP UP CARD BEFORE MAAH! =X
Okay laugh laugh laugh, that was meant to be funny especially for people who uses prepaids.
THANKS AAAAAAH.
I even considered the expiry date below the black space.
Shall enjoy my bubble tea and collate Pastor How's birthday messages now.
Then go back to refuge.
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| Whoots! |
[05 Sep 2007|10:55pm] |
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Today's zone outing was not bad with the exceptions that not everyone was together, and... Never mind.
Gaaah. Before I emo I shall stop here.
Worship session with Derry this morning was great!
Really felt God's presence ministering to both of us.
I feel accomplished again today!
Haha, Sam Chong just called me.
I think God is super duper ultra great can.
He asks if we can study together next week as he thinks he's going to take Maths supp paper, and he needs help in it.
Well I need help in Engfund, and he's helping me ask his friend who's from China and a pro in BOTH of these modules to get the predicted format of the supp paper.
WHOO!
I now realise that whenever we face problems and look up to God, He will provide, even to the extent of letting you have friends by your side to conquer the same problems together.
Though I don't know Sam Chong well, I believe he's someone fun to be with.
I love my life man.
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| SHOUTS |
[05 Sep 2007|02:03am] |
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I WILL CONQUER ENGINEERING FUNDAMENTALS!
I WILL CONQUER ITS SUPP PAPER AND STAY IN THIS CAMPUS!
I WILL NOT BE REMOVED FROM SCHOOL!
I WILL HAVE ACADEMIC EXCELLENCE AND SCORE A 3.50GPA FOR NEXT SEMESTER!
I WILL SUBMIT MY 100% TO GOD, INCLUDING MY EDUCATION!
I AM THE HEAD AND NOT THE TAIL!
I AM ABOVE AND NOT BENEATH!
MY FUTURE IS IN THE HANDS OF A GOD WHO CARES FOR ME!
I WILL NOT BE SHAKEN! I WILL NOT BE MOVED!
I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME!
FOR IF GOD IS WITH ME, NO ONE CAN BE AGAINST ME!
Bring it on.
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| Try harder, satan |
[04 Sep 2007|11:55pm] |
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As I said, my name is Jerubsatan.
Beg, devil, BEG.
Today I have successfully passed down one of abilities and I feel accomplished.
That is teaching Jolie how to change guitar strings! Haha.
I only showed her by changing one, and she did the rest. She's a fast learner! :)
I need more discipline!
Yes, maybe I am living my life and following my work plan. But I take like 351353265216133615 hours to do my work plan.
I'm supposed to send it every Monday. Last week, I sent it in on Tuesday morning. This week, I sent it in today afternoon.
Somebody KILL ME.
I don't care. Tomorrow's report I will send in before 12am.
OR GOD PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME TO! =/
Oh, and today I was so tempted to eat.
First was Cheryl Chan taking orders to buy Munchy Donuts near my house.
Secondly was buying cheese fries for Xinjie and walking pass Subway again in which today was the last day of their free upgrade offer.
Then was the delicious brownies on display at our cafe which called out to me when I just wanted an ice latte.
Last but not least, the small Ruffles pack left untouched on the cafe table by anonymous.
Try harder, little satan.
You don't stand a chance with me any more.
Not when my life is 100% submitted to God! :)
Yes and today we gave Bryan a tour around our church through his webcam.
Brought him to say hi to a lot of people around the church, and watch us play foosball.
Bryan, WE MISS YOU! DECEMBER IS A LOOONG LOOOOOOOONG TIME!
Oh well, zone outing tomorrow.
Hanging out in church to play games and have a great time!
I love holidays such as these, we get to catch up with everyone again.
See you guys tomorrow! :)
You were on a roll, please don't break that momentum now.
God wants to help you in your life, let Him in yeah?
I may not understand but I know He does.
&& I will always be your friend and here for you no matter what.
This is what family is all about :)
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| People Work? |
[04 Sep 2007|12:43pm] |
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Angels Cry Holy - Planetshakers |
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It's not about outings and game plans.
It's all about relationships and prayers.
Catching the heart of God.
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| REMINDER: I STILL OWE NOEL ONE DOLLAR AND FIFTY CENTS FOR PEARL MILK TEA |
[04 Sep 2007|01:21am] |
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Which spoke of your wheel of life belongs to God?
For me, the whole wheel.
Lord Jesus, I submit my 100%, I am nothing without You.
Today was God-planned. It must be.
Cut hair with Derry this afternoon!
Before you even ask, YES I CUT MY HAIR AGAIN. Trimmed it to be not-so-thick and easier to style.
I'm convinced alright, that long hair is GAAAYYYYYYYYY.
No lahh... Actually it's just hard to manage and very very irritating.
At least I didn't dye my hair again, not until Heart Awards draw nearer :)
I don't want my hair spoil laaaaaaaaa...
But you HAVE TO check out Derry's hair this Wednesday man.
He looks so much neater and cooler now.
Anyway, we went Gataomo to cut.
And met Jing Hong and other C2 people there too.
Soon after, Leon and Darryl came.
Leon cut too, Darryl just extra only. No lahhh, he pei Leon cut.
Subway-ed after that which marked my last meal until Thursday.
ENDURANCE!
Actually planned to head to church with Derry and worship God together, but re-arranged it since it was getting late.
Thus Derry went to meet his friend (that was also partly why, haha) for a night jog while I tagged along with Leon and Darryl for basketball.
Long time no see, Yishun Ring Road basketball court.
HAHA! And during my absence, one of the rims is crooked already. Oh deearrr...
Made a new friend!
His name is Lyone Sng! Actually we met last Saturday when he came for service.
Had a great time playing ball together.
Took the public transport with him and Nelson after that, managed to catch the last 135 at Ang Mo Kio :)
OH OH!
I FOUND MY LONG LOST SISTER!
WENDY LEE YINJIE!
I'M GABRIEL LEE RUIJIE!
REALLY!!! SAME SURNAME SAME JIE SAME BIG EYES SAME FATHER!
GOD IS AWESOME! :)
Okay time for work plan then talk to Papa a while then doodoo.
LOVES EVERYONE!
LOVES LIFE! :)
LOVES GOD!
YEAH!
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